Moods and Music

Everyone has a way of expressing how they feel. Most of us have people we can talk to when things are bad. Some people shop to make themselves feel better or gorge themselves on fast food or ice cream. A lot of us, including myself, tend to drown there sorrows at the local watering hole (I'm looking at you Bulldog) or in the privacy of their own homes. Some even write in journals or create poetry (which is something I do as well and I'll probably be posting some of those soon. Yes, I am a big girl if you haven't figured that out by now) to get their feelings out. And some just tend to bottle it up inside and try to distract themselves and pretend that there is no problem or that if they ignore it long enough it will either fix itself or just go away. We all have our ways of dealing with whatever pain is in our lives. Like I said , sometimes I end up writing these depressing poems that seem to make my friends think I need some medical help or should be put on 24 hour surveillance.

And then there's the mix tape.

Actually, I guess it's the mix CD. As many of my friends know, I seem to be the king of finding the most depressing music that has ever existed and compile all of it onto a CD to randomly torture myself with. It's a gift. I embrace it with open arms. Most of you know that the last month has not been good for me. At all. And with New Year already in full swing, it hasn't gotten any better. Last night at about 3am, I wondered downstairs to put together a mix to put on my Facebook page, but it seems that the Project Playlist player can no longer be added to the page. Aggravated, I headed back upstairs to lie in bed and continue staring at the ceiling and listening to my son snore up a storm in his Star Wars bed next to me, which I'm noticing he's already getting too big for. After getting about an hour and a half of sleep, the kid wakes up around 8 and we head down for some breakfast and to watch Raiders Of The Lost Ark, his latest obsession. After some grub, I returned to Project Playlist and stared at my playlist wondering should I delete it or just wait until I can post it on my page. At that point I decided I would just write a blog and post on here to share with you guys. There are a TON of things I would love to just write about here, but I've stuck my foot in my mouth enough for the last few weeks so I decided I'd let the music do the talking instead. I hope you enjoy, if that's possible, my selections. Feel free to leave any comments or feedback.

p.s. I promise I'll try to write a happy blog as soon as I can.